" We are not creatures of circumstance; we are creators of circumstance" ~ B. Disraeli
I seem to have lost my desire to take people seriously within the last few years.
I mean, yeah, quite a few factors of personal nature played into it, but now that
the past has "passed" and evolved me into new ways and perspectives, most people seem like a big joke to me. lol, and no, not a funny joke joke..maybe more like..ironic characters who don't know where they belong, so they're running wild, confused, just like all of us do, and can't seem to find a place of their own.BECAUSE THEY REFUSE TO. A state of confusion seems to be more attractive, mysterious, even ...consuming, than, a state of total clarity. I don't know what could possibly be attractive about a character that is always discontent with everything and everyone around them. But some people do make themselves believe, that their "struggle" makes them cute.
IT's not.
I have noticed that people who I do admire today, don't really ever seem to have any attacks of self-pity and dwellings, as opposed to those characters who I despise, as they don't seem to be moving forward but get stuck because they do not ever consider taking plan b, when plan a has not worked out for many years , many tears and many questions. They seem to get stuck not just for their fixation on plan a (some call it perseverance, if you want to go naively "positive" on this shit. Others, like me, may call it ignorance = lack of knowledge of else.) Ignorance, because they refuse to expand their views, fear taking new ways, and refuse to be themselves, as they should be - be without limitations that plan A puts them in. Plan A can also be called, the safe way to the total downfall.
Plan A could be..
- a desperate focus on staying in a broken relationship that doesn't move forward
- a relationship that has been in shambles and turns
into a failing attempt of reunion.
- a relationship consisting of unreturned love, crushes,
sexual interventions evolving into one sided emotional outbursts.
- a state of self - pity for reason x and y in your life.
- a state of self - pity pondering over your family situation, where you desperately do make yourself believe that you are in fact the only person of your age in this world dealing with this. I mean c'mon.? You can't be serious? Do you honestly believe,just because people don't spend nearly as much time mentioning their struggles, as you do, and thus spare you the moments of self-love-slash-hatred you keep filling your life with, they do not have problems worse than yours to worry about? Turn on the tv, if you can't actually see it in their faces. Maybe the media will feed you a little dose of reality.
- a state where you make yourself believe that the world revolves around you and you only and that people not calling you, or people you consider your friends should be there for you all the time. Some do have a life...
This could be continued, but i'm good on these few examples as they could be elaborated.
I mean, realize, we all go through shit, but have you honestly heard of a successful character who dwells on their mistakes, their mishaps, their failures? Have you? HELL NO. Show me, one Gates, one Carter, one Jones, one anyone, who has ever taken it far, that is sitting there dwelling on whatever they did while growing up, whatever went wrong in their family, childhood, love life. Let it define you, Yes, you can, let it play into whoever you are becoming, learn from it, cut it off, but learn from it, it will be a part of you that will shine through. But Get the fuck up and stop whining. PLAN A does not always work. Plan B sometimes DOES. If you don't...
In the end, you get the same situation from various perspectives. You are the dumbass stuck in self pity. You make yourself feel so sorry for yourself, then attempting to make everyone else feel sorry for you..that you do lose sight of everything and everyone else. Now just when you feel nobody cares for you, or refuses to listen to your bullshit, you forget that it's you, who's selfish. You forget that there are people dealing with different issues, not obliged to be there for you. Friends are there by choice, not by force.
Enough of this..i'll be hittin the pillow.
I just caaaaaaaaaaaaaaan't take yall seriously. Good God...
"You need to git up, git out and git somethin
Don't let the days of your life pass by
You need to git up, git out and git somethin
Don't spend all your time tryin to get high
You need git up, git out and git somethin
How will you make it if you never even try
You need to git up, git out and git somethin
Cuz you and I got to do for you and I"
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