Give Up the Goods...

So it's pretty much the end of the week (friday duh..) and the day's been
kind of busy..I picked up my homegirl from the airport, haven't seen her in
two years, she's beenout in D.C. and Detroit, and is now moving to Jersey..
Now she's stopped by for a month to chill with the peps / fam..etc....

Man i had the craziest ride. Trying to find some

parking - impossible, Ended up driving around the damn airport..AAAAHH!
Then her plane got in at what.. 12.48 or something..We actually been there
at..11.30(FUGG!)..(Hates waiting.) C was in a bad mood, bitching all day a
bout some pity shit, working my nerves. We ended up arguing at the airport
and on the way back like 2 yr olds I was like wtf. We argued about
flowers, about people, about moods, about plans, about

fucken shoes.! Bullpiss. Some days just aren't made
for human beings.

Other than that, her return made me rather upset for undisclosed reasons..

The situation I'm dealing with..reminded me of..Life's a bitch and then you die lol..
Thanks Nasir. You know some people are lucky enough to just have shit undeserved.
Fams, friends, Love, dough..Most of us, lack these "qualities" or just have single
particularities of them...and sure, we acquire personal wealth instead..
Those that face struggles all their life, grow up more mature, deeper, wise

beyond age, mentally less dependent..but made dependent by the circumstance
of their surrounding. It's sad..How much is either one of those depths worth,
while one brings you forward in a matarialistic scenario, and the other "just" makes
you the "better quality" person, while you're being shitted on.

Shit still smells right..Either way you put it. Euphemizing the circumstance is a bitch.

While money might be the most influential issue, when "creating" your life, the way

you want it.

Um..I was thinkin bout hittin the club tonight with everyone "celebrating" her visit,
but I'll pass onthat..(Thinking: I'm 23, it's friday, and i'm at home, while all of my
friends are out..what a loser.) It's just one of those days, i don't feel too great..
Been crying yesterday, now I'm still upset cause the problem's unsolved and I
don't really see a way how to solve it just yet, So this "nowayout"-mode drags along.
Frustrated with everything, This adds up to: I don't know what to wear, don't wanna do

my hair or walk in the rain, don't wanna miss my dear bed tonight, and get home at 5
am with my clothes smellin like shit...I don't wanna get hit on by these dudes..I don't
wanna see my ex. ETC. I don't want this and i don't want that..

SHORT CUT: I'm bitching. Blaaaah!!!! Why not just stay at home..
Even though right about now I feel like I'm missin out on partying with them for once..
You know this shit irks...It's like..DAMMMIT...I wanna be there..but then...NAWWW...
Stay your ass home now, do laundry, get some pizza, read a book and chill.
(How Boring.)

randomness

I did wanna go..Fucken bs..I don't even know what i want right now,

something just doesn't seem right..I been contemplating going out

for the last 4 hrs..and ended up wanting to stay home just to question

that decision again.

Blah..i'll go..get my pizza. spaghetti.